- Why is it that when you finally meet someone you like, all sense of reason disappears out of the window?
- Why is it that you behave irrationally and out of character?
- Why do you do things you know you will regret later?
- Why do the mother of all Freudian slips come out of your mouth?
- Why do you feel the need to text them all the time?
Now you are probably thinking what the hell has been going on. Let me elaborate...
Despite my best intentions, things have gone a little further than anticipated. I haven't seen loads of him, but when I have, things have happened. Sometimes I wish I was an Ice Queen, but I've always had the attitude (rightly or wrongly) to go with the flow. I am certainly not saying that I regret it, but there is a part of me that can't help but think that i should have waited. Built up the anticipation, the romance, the need. But then at the same time there was 5 weeks of this prior to meeting... not that that's an excuse.
With this, you seem to relax more in each others company, and with that, you say things that you really shouldn't. There has been a few of these little gems, but to put it into perspective, I referred to myself as "his girlfriend" having only met him for the first time the day before. Thankfully he saw the funny side of it.
And now, I cannot stop thinking about him. Perhaps its because I have some time off and I am spending too much time alone, but still - chill out Bridget. I know that to an extent he is too - he texts and calls, and makes a point of making me feel like I am more than just a fling. However, from experience, you can never trust a man 100% and despite Nathans total loveliness, trust is only something that can be built, not assumed.
I'm going away tomorrow, and I hope that with this, I'll calm down. Hopefully he might even miss me a little.
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